Both will offer varying degrees of freedom but I don’t necessarily need either at the moment. I live at home at hardly pay anything and I know my way around public transit, though Baltimore has the worst public transportation in the country? on the east coast. I could just stack my money and do without either, but where’s the fun in that?

The catch, however, is that there’s something in the way of me getting either of them. I can’t get a car until I get my license, which I’d like to do this summer, but I haven’t practiced parking as I should. As for the apartment, I’m waiting for my homeboy to get a job because the plan is for us to get a place together.

I’m leaning towards the car tonight.

ghdos:

So.

I didn’t want to make this post because I don’t want to be coddled. But one of my co-workers passed away this morning. She was 28. Twenty-fucking-eight, B. From a blood clot in her heart of all things. She and I are the same age.

Just in case, I’m not here tomorrow or in case YOU are not here tomorrow, I’m taking the opportunity now to tell you all that I love you and wish you nothing but prosperous things. Even if we’ve never talked more than a few seconds or whatever, just the fact that you see my face here every day and listen to me talk shit is enough to make me give a fuck.

I literally just talked to this woman yesterday afternoon and nothing at all about her demeanor indicated that she wouldn’t wake up this morning. Life is precious yo. Take every advantage to let people know that you care about them. Seriously.

Ok, that’s it.

Carry on with your blogging.

I’ve been looking and applying for some jobs, but I feel like I’d rather not get a job right away, which is seeming to be the case as I haven’t had any responses from the jobs that I applied for.

The main reason is because I need a break from school and work. I spent almost all of college working, - I had different jobs during my first 3 years and an internship during the first semester of my senior year- not to mention the effort and time that I put in. I wasn’t privy to just sliding by throughout college, which shows as I’ve made the Dean’s List numerous times. Overall, I’m tired of constant deadlines, assignments, and obligation to get things done. I want to live in the moment and stop working towards due dates.

I’ve worked hard during college, putting my school work first most of the time and pushing things (and people) away, which stopped me from enjoying college and life as much as I could’ve. I want to use my time without school and a job to chill, to have fun, to spend time with people. Plus, it’ll be summer, so there will be so much shit to do.

I have some money saved up to live off of, which would be fine for a while since the only bill I have to pay is my phone bill. I’ll also stay at home, so that’s free housing and internet.

The only issue is when Sallie Mae or whoever comes asking for their loan money back. Even though I only owe a small amount, I’m sure they won’t take no for an answer. But they can’t take 20% of something that I don’t have.

I wanna wake up the day after graduation and go to an O’s game, but they’ll be on the road. A movie and Federal Hill would be good.

This is all short-term. I do want to have a job later this year and I’m keeping grad school in mind for next year. I already have my school and program picked out.

fearandhope:

Just got some serious knowledge dropped on me by an extremely intelligent, highly educated, old man with demons of his own. 

He starts off the conversation pointing out that there is a significant difference between happiness and success. He also said that he is pretty sure that most of us had never thought to distinguish the two. He said that equating the two is one of the biggest mistakes most people make. He said he had four things to say, and he went straight into them:

1. Be Selfish - He said we should be selfish. He said that he does not mean selfishness in that greedy way, but selfishness in terms of understanding what works for you, both professionally and personally.

• On a professional level, he said that he understands that, as young people, we are under the pressure to be intelligent, and successful in a particular way. He said that to achieve what you want, you must be willing to accept that whatever career you choose may not necessarily be for you, and that that is okay. He said that if you find that a certain career that you chose is not for you, it does not mean that you are a failure or that something is wrong with. What matters is that you figure out what works for you on a personal level and do that; find something that you are passionate about; find something that makes you want to wake up every morning.
• On a personal level, he said that for him those things were his travelling experiences, his multiple pets, and his relationship with his son. He said that everyone does not require the same things, but it is important to find them. 

2. Live Like a Student - He said even after you start making money, it is important to continue to live frugally for 5-7 years. He said that the goal should be to pay off loans and save as much as the situation requires. He said that any extra money that you have (after bills and minimum debt payments have been made) should be split into two equal parts, with the first half going to debt reduction, and the second half going into a savings account. He said that life is too unpredictable, and as you embark on the process of figuring out what works for you (both personally and professionally), you need funds stacked away so that once it clicks, you can make the moves that will place you where you want to be. He said that a failure to do this can limit you. He said that you don’t have to live like a pauper, but that you should not be a slave to debt or over-excessive spending.

3. Be Malleable to Change - He said that it is important to understand that the journey will not go as planned. He said that we must understand that we will most likely have to try several different things (both professionally and personally). He said that you will switch jobs at least twice, and that most people get re-married at least once. He said that the point is that the only way to achieve happiness is to be open to change, with the understanding that the journey will never go as planned.

4. Be Nice - To conclude, he said that a failure to do the first three rules leads not only to unhappiness, but also to loneliness. This is because you will become too unpleasant. He said that that unpleasantness that you see in certain people is caused by the pain they are enduring from not being able to achieve happiness. He said that most “jerks” are square pegs trying to fit in circular holes. He said to be nice to everyone, because the same people you see on your way up, are the ones you will see on your way down.

I needed to hear this! I don’t even know what to do with myself after this.

optimistic-ultimatum:

My life isn’t nearly as entertaining as I wish it were. I want to travel. I want to see things. I want to experience the world I have around me.

I just don’t have the resources to do it… At least not yet…

I’m too often a boring person.

decemburrr:

All I want after I get my degree is stable job/career, a nice little apartment in Charles Village, and a chocolate Labrador that waits for me by the door.

Simple.

I just want a new place, new people, and new things.

mundisomniorum:

Confident. Kind. Full of energy. Happy. Brave. Smart. Healthy. Courageous. Beautiful. Strong. Approachable. Friendly. Fun. An Explorer. Joyful. Fashionable. Loyal. Respectful.